Aku sekeping papan yang kau bina menjadi pintu kamarmu,
Kau robohkan kamarmu namun aku masih utuh menjadi pintu dibawah timbunan rintuhan itu,
Hanya yang sedar keindahanku mampu menjadikanku pintu mahligainya.
Hatiku bak besi yang kau lenturkan menjadi pedangmu,
Pedang itu kau tinggalkan didalam kerak bumi kerna tiada lagi gunanya pada dirimu,
Masa membuatkannya menjadi berlian yang hanya berlian jua yang akan mampu memotongnya.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
perubahan...
Changes that happening to me now…secare sedar mahupun tidak yg sukar untuk ku kawal
1)I don’t feel da pleasure of eating…since dad day…don’t relly know da reason but I can even live for more than 36 hrs without food, just skyjuice wheneva I feel hungry…
2)I like to sleep…sleep make me feel better…everything seem not happening n I feel like im in a new day everytime I wake up
3)I think my memory start to regain their ability…I can memories better now
4)I don’t know in what mood m I now????
5)I mis my family more but I don’t want to return becos im afraid that I will start to eat anyting again n for me it is not good.
6)Im comfortable being alone….doing my own thing…but stil wif my bestie i feel secure…luv u all so much ^_^…don’t know how m I going to keep on my life without your support.
7)N….i don’t feel im belong to selangar of kl…im better in kuantan n kemaman…make my vision clear ….somtimes I mis kemaman…da ikang n all frenz there though most of them r in kl now…wheneva som1 ask where m I from…I cant even respond to those kind of ques…just say my house in kajang…that’s all!
1)I don’t feel da pleasure of eating…since dad day…don’t relly know da reason but I can even live for more than 36 hrs without food, just skyjuice wheneva I feel hungry…
2)I like to sleep…sleep make me feel better…everything seem not happening n I feel like im in a new day everytime I wake up
3)I think my memory start to regain their ability…I can memories better now
4)I don’t know in what mood m I now????
5)I mis my family more but I don’t want to return becos im afraid that I will start to eat anyting again n for me it is not good.
6)Im comfortable being alone….doing my own thing…but stil wif my bestie i feel secure…luv u all so much ^_^…don’t know how m I going to keep on my life without your support.
7)N….i don’t feel im belong to selangar of kl…im better in kuantan n kemaman…make my vision clear ….somtimes I mis kemaman…da ikang n all frenz there though most of them r in kl now…wheneva som1 ask where m I from…I cant even respond to those kind of ques…just say my house in kajang…that’s all!
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
persoklan dlm hati...
i shouldn't mis som1 yg not even a second mis me...kan2...but how to control our own heart. im a straightforward person. say what is inside my heart...so whateva u heard me saying then that clearly what im thinking.
n i keep on thinking sukarnye memahami hati dah perasaan manusie. sungguh sukar dimengerti. ade yg x peduli...ader yg sensitif...n ader yg sensitip n wat2 x peduli. stil that adalah keindahan manusie. hanye tuhan yg mengetahui aper yg tersirat. n kte just manusie biase jekan.
n my future planning?...i seem mcm dah bertahun merancang n stil until now stil merancang...seolah tiade pengakhiran. just ade target but dont even know how to achieve that target. yela konon2 la kan (perancangan few years back),
24-grad degree n kje
26-kawen (harapnye ade jodohla)
27-1st child
28-master
29-2nd child
30-last child (2 atau 3 ckpla...n better b4 30 kan)
so from 30 to 35 mse tuk membesarkan anak sambil kje
35-target for phd :people start calling me doc
40-got own biz
~memg bgus gler la perancangan~
but dad just planing-follow selagi mampu
n stil stick nan perancangn nie...andai rezekiku dictu
...klu nak cte sume persoklan byk kut...so that all ye 4 now!
n i keep on thinking sukarnye memahami hati dah perasaan manusie. sungguh sukar dimengerti. ade yg x peduli...ader yg sensitif...n ader yg sensitip n wat2 x peduli. stil that adalah keindahan manusie. hanye tuhan yg mengetahui aper yg tersirat. n kte just manusie biase jekan.
n my future planning?...i seem mcm dah bertahun merancang n stil until now stil merancang...seolah tiade pengakhiran. just ade target but dont even know how to achieve that target. yela konon2 la kan (perancangan few years back),
24-grad degree n kje
26-kawen (harapnye ade jodohla)
27-1st child
28-master
29-2nd child
30-last child (2 atau 3 ckpla...n better b4 30 kan)
so from 30 to 35 mse tuk membesarkan anak sambil kje
35-target for phd :people start calling me doc
40-got own biz
~memg bgus gler la perancangan~
but dad just planing-follow selagi mampu
n stil stick nan perancangn nie...andai rezekiku dictu
...klu nak cte sume persoklan byk kut...so that all ye 4 now!
Sunday, March 14, 2010
perubahan yg x mendadak kan...
suddenly my type of guy is changing...hahahahaha...~
le x klu nak yg ble drive nampak macho jew...rupe x menjadik persoklan
ble nan die i feel secure...hahahahahah*pehal yg aku merepek*
n i got new target in life...iphone...berangan dlula walaupom lambat agy klu nak dpt pom...xmo bebel2...nak ketawe n senyum puas2 dlm idup~kurangkan kontroversi n tingkatkan prestasi...hohohoho
Monday, March 1, 2010
Mgu yg memenatkan
Mgu lpas merupekan mgu yg sungguh penuh dgn criter suke dan duke. Hamper semgu ade je kerje yg kne settle…memg penat lah. Sepanjang senin duk dlm lab mengadap en2 tissue (hahahahhaha…make it sound menarik skit). Igtkan slase le jadik hari yg lebih bek tp malang memg x berbau…igtkan le settle hal mto…kuncinye plak larik ntah kemane…ADUYAI…dukla sepanjg mlm berhempas puas menyelongkar barg2 kat blik yg memg dah jadik tongkang bermgu2 (dasar pemalas la katekan J). Dah selongkar kne la kemas lak…so rabu menjadik harinye…ciap ditgur kemas brg macam nak blik ajer….hik3!...stil x de tande2 gak en kunci mampu dijumpai…runsingla sepanjg ri kamis…makan x kenyg (agaknye berpuluh gak bis…gare2 runsing punyer psl)…n beranikan dri inform ayah…HUH…sabo jela. Jummatnye plak duk cbuk nan en2 guard peg clamp…owg len elak mto kne clamp ni ciap peg jumpe plak guard2 “en le tolg clampkan mto x…kunci ilang”…hahahahahaha…nsib guard2 laki cni bek hati…WOW…sabtunye lebey baik dgn picnic di pancing…hepi glerr dpt berendam lme2 bersme enna, fad, anis, fana, sham, kak tim n minah. Owg kate jgn gembre lebey2 nnt duke yg dtg…nie kre x pe duke pasti gembre akan menyusul…ader btulnye kut...niway thanx tuk budak2 nie sebb memakseku…hik3. sabtunye menjadik hari terbaik ble merangkul tempat kedue tuk mahallah bowling tournament…hepi glerr mcm x percye n dlm mimpi.Pastu peg njoy sepanjg hri bersme kak tim n jiah…yg akhirnye disertai fad n anis…n kul 9 bru sampai UIA blik…hahahahaha…mgu yg panjg dah penuh nan warne warninye…senyuman je yg mampu diukir pabila mgu berakhir walaupun kepenatan
Sunday, February 21, 2010
meee.....
Personality Tests result:
Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Your view on yourself:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are down-to-earth
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :People like you because you are so straightforward
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both si
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You like serious
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Smart
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Determined people
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You don't judge a book by its cover
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :So good-looking people aren't necessarily your style
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that pe
The seriousness of your love:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You like to flirt
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Behave seductively
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :The opposite sex finds this very attractive
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :That's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship
Your views on education:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You listen to your own instincts
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Tend to follow your heart
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :So you will probably end up with an unusual job
The right job for you:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You're a practical person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Will choose a secure job with a steady income
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Knowing what you like to do is important
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Find a regular job doing just that
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You'll be set for life
How do you view success:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are afraid of failure
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you d
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous
What are you most afraid of:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are afraid of things that you cannot control
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel
Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Your view on yourself:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are down-to-earth
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :People like you because you are so straightforward
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both si
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You like serious
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Smart
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Determined people
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You don't judge a book by its cover
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :So good-looking people aren't necessarily your style
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that pe
The seriousness of your love:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You like to flirt
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Behave seductively
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :The opposite sex finds this very attractive
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :That's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship
Your views on education:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You listen to your own instincts
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Tend to follow your heart
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :So you will probably end up with an unusual job
The right job for you:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You're a practical person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Will choose a secure job with a steady income
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Knowing what you like to do is important
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Find a regular job doing just that
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You'll be set for life
How do you view success:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are afraid of failure
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you d
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous
What are you most afraid of:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are afraid of things that you cannot control
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Idupku seperti roda yg bru mencrik laluannye
Sedar x sdr dah nak 24 tahun aku idup kat dunie nie…tp seolah2 bru smalam aku lahir. X byk upernye mende yg aku blajar n dpt berkenaan ilmu dunie slame ini. So ble somtg small happen pom ase mcm besar je mende tu. Mule la terkontang kanting. Memg x le nak jawab pom klu owg tanye pe yg ko tau dlm idup???...yela selame 24 thun hanye kenal dunie sek n blaja je. Tu pom stil x de beze nan owg len. Bukan nak merintih tp ble da reality…no komen jela jawabnye…hahahahahaha~~~
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Bermulenye stu perjuangan berakhirnye stu pengembaraan…
Huh…nak ikut2!!! Jerit hatiku…dan bermule detik itu juge semangatku membare…
Lelapla mate dah kul 4 pag ni…pag nnt ade rancangan menarik…dah berhari ni duk sik nan berendam jer.
Okeh udah jam enam…cepat kejut kak tym n peg mand…dgn semangat waja…lalalala (in xcited mode la katekan).
Bermulela perjuangan yg benar2 mencabar…maklumla selame nie x pernah berjaye sik pancit ajer…PLKN jgn nak kte la hari2 nek bukit n hri2 semput…BTN x sampai suku pun dah pancit…but feel like kli nie diff…I will prove to my own self.
…in da way…journey is a journey…top is the target…hahhahaha…at last sampai juge n im the 2nd person…smiling2 even kaki dah mule kram glerrrr….
…n its mand tym…hahahaha
Udah2 le tu cik kak udah tghri nie…mse tuk pulang…aik kram ilang lerr pulak…
…prepare to depart…
…kemas n pulang…
…proud at last berjaye menyempurnakan menyempurnakan stu pengembaraan…tp…perjuangan bru bermule…huhuhu…walaupun kesannye masih terase but x
…until next time…
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
SAPE KATE SAMPAH TU X PENTING…
Huhuhu…penat2 selapas mengharungi satu perjalanan merentas negri semate2 untuk melawat kilang melupuskan sampah….melupuskan sampah???..hahah sound horrible je…tempah sampah pun nak peg ke…hahaha…(dad what most people would said)…sampah bukan sebarang sampah…nak ke jadik mcm ape yg terjadi dlm wall-e (for those who watch…he/she will know). Tau2 x tau sedarkah dlm stu bandar seperti kuantan menghasilkan hamper 400tonne sampah sehari (bukan sikit tu)…n bayangkan sisa n sampah2 dri hospital dibuang ke tempat pelupusan sampah. Dengan darah2, dagiang2 manusie, organisma2/makhluk2 kecil yg x mampu dilihat mata kasar kte tap mampu menggemparkan selurh dunie seperti H1N1…x mampu rasenye owg biase membayangkan. Kan ke penting tempat pelupusan sampah yg dilawat ini…CLINWASTE…dieowg tolg lupus dgn membakar sampah2 ini dgn teknik yg btul supaye kite slamat…kte patt ase bersyukur.
Tp pepe pun best btul pengalaman lawatan kali ni…pas blik pegla nak la peg JJ bukit tgi. Bangge plak ble tgk 3 owg guard berusaha tk kami yg dtg dri jauh. Sape suh x sediekan tempat bas khas…pe pak cik bas x le nak shoping ke…hahaha…dah la tgk hebat plak pak cik bas tuh dok bwk bas kami…chaiyok ah pakcik.
Tp memg bermakne tulla. Lawatan yg adventure lak asenye. Driver sporting ngan dr J yg sporting…SEMPOI tul…hahahahahaha (senyuman n ktawe je yg mampu diluahkan). Dpt stu memori indah di sem akhir nie….:-))
Tp pepe pun best btul pengalaman lawatan kali ni…pas blik pegla nak la peg JJ bukit tgi. Bangge plak ble tgk 3 owg guard berusaha tk kami yg dtg dri jauh. Sape suh x sediekan tempat bas khas…pe pak cik bas x le nak shoping ke…hahaha…dah la tgk hebat plak pak cik bas tuh dok bwk bas kami…chaiyok ah pakcik.
Tp memg bermakne tulla. Lawatan yg adventure lak asenye. Driver sporting ngan dr J yg sporting…SEMPOI tul…hahahahahaha (senyuman n ktawe je yg mampu diluahkan). Dpt stu memori indah di sem akhir nie….:-))
Kadang kala x salah berubah…mencari sinar dan dunie bru…brulah idup ini ader warnenye
Menarik upernye lepak2 dikedai mamak sambil mencarik ilham…maklumla x pernah cube tetibe terase plak nak wat. Walaupun plan asal nak ke kl central je…y not do somtg diff kan. The not really good thing tu ble ade owg seblah duk merokok…men tahan je la idung dgn asap2 yg cube menyerang ronggenye. HUH! Bingit jugak suasane kat kedai mamak tgh2 ri nie…igt malam je tp waktu camni pun penuh….confrm mamak ni untung gle2….dahla 24/7 bukak.
Tetibe duk tgh2 termenung ase kagum nan mat saleh (atau owg arab…yg mane x tau la) tgh bace buku. Bagus btul. Sempat lagi lepas dah kenyang membace. Klula sume rakyat Malaysia mcm en yg kat sebleh nie confrm berjye gle la owg2 malaysia. Tp makan nan kawan sambil berbual2 pun ok per. Merapatkan silaturrahim…jgn duk lepak tu mengumpat udah…k la pkr optimis…mereka lepak sambil berbual hal kerja n mende2 ilmiah kut… tetapi klu ikut kajian lag elok dieowg dapatkan tido selame beberape minit so nant ble nak kje petg tenage ade…x la letih n mengantuk je ble jumpe customer kan. Ikutla tu pilihan masing2. Mane yg baik kte ikut…mane yg tidak jdikan teladan.
Memg macam2 btul ragam manusia nie…klu nak duk crite sampai mati pun x bis agaknye. Tp menarikkan ble tgk masing2 nan ragam yg berbeze…brulah owg kate dunie ni ader warne. Bayangkan sume owg same je….bek tgk robot kan. They won’t be called as human. Memg human nature nie amat indah untuk diperhati dan diteliti. MERIAH2…bangge menjadi manusie ciptaan tuhan
Tetibe duk tgh2 termenung ase kagum nan mat saleh (atau owg arab…yg mane x tau la) tgh bace buku. Bagus btul. Sempat lagi lepas dah kenyang membace. Klula sume rakyat Malaysia mcm en yg kat sebleh nie confrm berjye gle la owg2 malaysia. Tp makan nan kawan sambil berbual2 pun ok per. Merapatkan silaturrahim…jgn duk lepak tu mengumpat udah…k la pkr optimis…mereka lepak sambil berbual hal kerja n mende2 ilmiah kut… tetapi klu ikut kajian lag elok dieowg dapatkan tido selame beberape minit so nant ble nak kje petg tenage ade…x la letih n mengantuk je ble jumpe customer kan. Ikutla tu pilihan masing2. Mane yg baik kte ikut…mane yg tidak jdikan teladan.
Memg macam2 btul ragam manusia nie…klu nak duk crite sampai mati pun x bis agaknye. Tp menarikkan ble tgk masing2 nan ragam yg berbeze…brulah owg kate dunie ni ader warne. Bayangkan sume owg same je….bek tgk robot kan. They won’t be called as human. Memg human nature nie amat indah untuk diperhati dan diteliti. MERIAH2…bangge menjadi manusie ciptaan tuhan
PEMBUNUH…PEMBUNUH…PEMBUNUH…
4 more kecundang ditgnku dlm mse 2 jam. Hebat x hebat…macam x de perasaan je buat kje. Ade yg normal n ader yg pelik. Xpe2 yg penting ade progress. N I’ve pleasure doing it which I shouldn’t. HUH! If im in their shoes…bayangkan…manusie nie x de perasaan tul…sedap2 die je bunuh saudre kami…PEMBUNUH!
Maap ye en. Rats…al-Fatihah saye sedekahkan kepada yg menemui ajal pada hari ini dan lpas2 nie. Ini perlu untuk belajar…n harapkan supaye pengorbanan anda tidak sie2…doakan saye jadi researcher Berjaya…..AMIN~
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
coretan kate hatiku...
dari mata turun kehati. dari hati termetrainya sebuah janji.
tetibe plak pagi2 yg bening ini inginku berpuitis sambil mendengar iringan lagu2 yg mendayu dari kamar sebelah.
wah2...saperti smalamnya kami bertige masing2 menghabiskan malam dan pagi berjage hingge sang matahri sepertinye mule terbit.
...buat lady enna good luck tuk perjuangan yang bakal kau hadapi pagi nant...
huh rutin harian pelajarkah???tetibe benak pikiranku berbisik lembut kepada drinya sendri mengharapkan jawaban.
mungkin hanye pelajar tahun akhir yg begini. berjage malam semakin rajin namun keclas dah menghabiskan sisa2 ilmu sebelum menggulung sekeping ijazah
bagaikan stu yang membebankan...malah kate2 malas semakin lancar dri mulut2 kami...huh...pela nak jadi~~~
esok kuiz...mlmnye bru ingat tuk membanting tulang yg berpuluh2 kerat...ntah pe yg dibuat dhri2 sebelum. agaknye klu ble 5 detik sebelum
melangkah kemedan perjuangan bru nak membelek en2 kertas dan nota2...alangkah cdihnya mereka...dibuke pabila terpakse.
huh...tetibe hati ini terigt sang kekasih...tgh dibuat apakah empunya dri...mest tgh membanting tulang mencarik sesuap nasi...
...xpela ri ni biarla die merehatkan dri...ermmmm (*mengeluh*)...
tetibe plak pagi2 yg bening ini inginku berpuitis sambil mendengar iringan lagu2 yg mendayu dari kamar sebelah.
wah2...saperti smalamnya kami bertige masing2 menghabiskan malam dan pagi berjage hingge sang matahri sepertinye mule terbit.
...buat lady enna good luck tuk perjuangan yang bakal kau hadapi pagi nant...
huh rutin harian pelajarkah???tetibe benak pikiranku berbisik lembut kepada drinya sendri mengharapkan jawaban.
mungkin hanye pelajar tahun akhir yg begini. berjage malam semakin rajin namun keclas dah menghabiskan sisa2 ilmu sebelum menggulung sekeping ijazah
bagaikan stu yang membebankan...malah kate2 malas semakin lancar dri mulut2 kami...huh...pela nak jadi~~~
esok kuiz...mlmnye bru ingat tuk membanting tulang yg berpuluh2 kerat...ntah pe yg dibuat dhri2 sebelum. agaknye klu ble 5 detik sebelum
melangkah kemedan perjuangan bru nak membelek en2 kertas dan nota2...alangkah cdihnya mereka...dibuke pabila terpakse.
huh...tetibe hati ini terigt sang kekasih...tgh dibuat apakah empunya dri...mest tgh membanting tulang mencarik sesuap nasi...
...xpela ri ni biarla die merehatkan dri...ermmmm (*mengeluh*)...
